She

Years ago when I was a teenager, I fell in love. Or so i thought. And then a year after that, I again fell in love. And the year next. Being the coconut I am, i realized i am not falling in love, but I am falling out of it. It was quite sometime before I fell for a girl again and fell out of it. Again. And then she waltzed in my life.
Sometimes you just dont realize how important a person is. From a mere mortal view, she had no special padding around her. But if you could that one level up and see; she was like a pure ray of light or rather the essence of it. I was not doing too bad without her, but i was not doing too good either. Unlike others, she never changed me. She just made me better at what i do.
Today, after taking so many decisions with her, I knew I had to write something. It has been there at the back of my mind from a long time, but i could never frame it or structure it to come into words. Today it has.
Working in the software service sector, one can get taxed a bit ( and I am being diplomatic here!) and one could feel an void. Sort of emptiness in the crowd. Where you see lots but yet cannot 'be' with anyone. After being through so many failed relationships, I grew cold. Nothing could touch or move it anymore.
As law of physics explain the movement from high pressure to low pressure, she came like a soothing wind. And no more were my emotions dry.
It been close to a year now, and there is nothing better that describes our relationship other than the word commitment. In the last one year, our relationship grew like India post economic liberalization ( forgive the analogy ). We went too fast and in retrospect I would not have wanted it any other way. We faced so many issues in such a short span of time that I have now come to rely on her without me even knowing about it.
When I can go for a year long break from here, it requires a huge commitment from her. I was skeptical bout it but she never was. Places where I doubted myself she was confident. It was as if she was the captain of my life ship. I had never thought people like this existed anymore but someone really likes me to prove me wrong.
She is the by far one of those rare few who without asking has given a new meaning to my life.
She, at this moment, is far away. But she knows I will come for her. In a year.